Huge fight with aunt and now i feel awful

We’ve never fought before, but today it blew up—and now I can’t stop crying thinking about what just happened.

I got into a serious argument with my aunt, and it’s honestly left me shaken. We’ve always been close—she’s the one person in the family I’ve felt truly connected to, like a second mom in a lot of ways. But this was a real fight. Voices were raised, harsh words were said, and we both walked away angry.

It’s never happened before. Not even a small disagreement. That’s probably why it hit so hard. I feel this awful mix of guilt, sadness, and confusion. I don’t even know how we got to that point. It started out as a regular conversation, and suddenly it was like we were strangers yelling at each other.

I keep thinking about reaching out, saying sorry, and trying to fix it, but I also feel like she should meet me halfway. I don’t want to make it worse or seem like I’m brushing everything under the rug either. It’s so hard because we’re usually each other’s safe space, and now it just feels broken.

Has anyone else been through something like this with a close family member? Did you fix it, and how? I feel so lost right now.